I became an introvert in everything, but my team meetings, listening more than speaking, because I didn’t want to ‘lose my words’, or worse, talk utter rubbish and embarrass myself!

Now Vs. 5 Years - We do love a social media ‘memory’ flashing up on our phone, until you’re experiencing symptoms, of weight gain, panic, fatigue and anxiety... then, the comparison, bites your backside and confidence, making your wish to be seen, even quieter, hard when you’re working, running a team and reporting figures each month?!

I was always known as the go-getter, endless energy, motivation and drive (fake it, till you make it!)... Until being side swiped with exhaustion, I can only explain this as walking through sand or pushing a car up hill.

Imposter syndrome at its best. Constant questioning, am I good enough? What am I contributing? I need to motivate a team, deliver financial results and play my A game but I’m motivating from a place of low self motivation - absolutely exhausting and at times, humiliating.

Where did ‘she’ go? The one who was humorous, loved fashion, pretty smart/sharp... what happened to her? I think finding me again, the version after ‘she’s gone mad’ has been the toughest ask yet. But worth it!!! I am you.